Heart & Soul
32 days I will be immersing my mind and body in learning life in .
A life that is hard work, full of
struggles and challenges. In these past 3-4 days I have learned to live in much
simpler conditions than in Haiti .
I’ve had to learn to do laundry in a bucket daily, learn to live without a
dresser and limited storage, with the constant presence of dust and dirt (which
in turn makes me sweep & dust a lot) and a bathroom sink that continually
runs out of water and leaks. I have learned a few more words and songs in
Creole. I have learned to start my days when the sun rises and go to sleep as
the sun sets. I have learned to take advantage of every minute of electricity
to charge electronics, FaceTime with my husband, check Facebook J, and sit in front of
a fan and enjoy a fresh breeze on my sweaty face. I’m reading books about America Haiti’s history, about children in
and earthquake stories. So many things my mind and body have gained knowledge. Haiti
I will also be immersing heart & soul in my Lord, the love of my life. I
will be doing a bible study daily, in the solitude of my room, about King
David. Today was Day 1 of “David, seeking a heart like His” and the story
starts in 1 Samuel 14, and it talks about King Saul’s son, Jonathon, who later
becomes a great friend of David and this verse jumped out and hit me: Haiti
And his armor-bearer said to him, “Do all that is in your heart. Do as you wish. Behold, I am with you heart and soul.” – 1 Samuel 14:7
Jonathon is going to battle with the Philistines and his armor- bearer pledges (and gives) his life to Jonathon to do as he wished! How does Jonathon respond? “Behold, we will cross over to the men” Pretty much “OK, we’re going to battle!” A few things touched my heart but I will share three:
1- The surrendered heart of the arm-bearer; no will, no hesitations, no questions, nothing. “Do all that is in YOUR heart. Do as YOU wish.” How many times don’t I question, fear and fight against His will in my life? Countless. How many times should I answer as the arm-bearer but then choose to say no to God? Not only that, he gave his “heart & soul”! “I am with you HEART & SOUL!” How do we get to that place?
2- The arm-bearer’s response assured Jonathon, “he is all in with me”, ok let’s go to battle! The same way God is waiting for that surrendered heart and then and only then can He use us for all that is in His heart and in His wishes.
3- ‘The arm bearer followed behind Jonathon. His master led him into battle’ and then the battle was won. How many times has the Lord let me know, “I lead, you follow”? How many times do I miss it? How many times does He have to tell me? I don’t know but I am thankful He doesn’t give up pursuing me and wanting me to be ALL His so He can do all that is in His heart with me.
I am so grateful that He goes before me.