In December when I started to pack and fundraise for these 32 days I was reading Exodus and came across the verse:“If your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here.
Instantly I knew that was going to be my prayer. I will not move one step without you if His presence is not wit me I am not going anywhere.
I’ve always been a “fan” if you can say of verses that have the word “walk” like:
Walk with love:
Walk by faith:For we walk by faith, not by sight.
2 Corinthians 5:7
Walk humbly:And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.
In the back of my mind as I prepared for this trip I had a little fear (a little lie) in the back of my mind, “What if I get a flare from my Rheumatoid? What will I do (without Obe)? How will I not draw negative attention to my time there? How will I recover? How much medicine should I take with me? What if my spinal stenosis or herniated discs or whatever cause my left leg to hurt and limit my abilities to be with the kids?”
You see the enemy tried everything to stop me from coming. He raised many fears, doubts in me and even in my God. He brought people against me and tried to feed me lies about myself. I related a lot with Moses and now I look back on my timing in reading Genesis and Exodus and know God needed to tell me:
- Yes, you may think you are not sufficient:
Exodus 3:10 But Moses pleaded with the Lord, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.”
- Yes, you have a past that can try to come haunt you
Exodus 2:11 Many years later, when Moses had grown up, he went out to visit his own people, the Hebrews, and he saw how hard they were forced to work. During his visit, he saw an Egyptian beating one of his fellow Hebrews. 12 After looking in all directions to make sure no one was watching, Moses killed the Egyptian and hid the body in the sand.
- Yes, you need others to help you:
Exodus 17:11 As long as Moses held up the staff in his hand, the Israelites had the advantage. But whenever he dropped his hand, the Amalekites gained the advantage. 12 Moses’ arms soon became so tired he could no longer hold them up. So Aaron and Hur found a stone for him to sit on. Then they stood on each side of Moses, holding up his hands. So his hands held steady until sunset. 13 As a result, Joshua overwhelmed the army of Amalek in battle.
- And yes, I Am is with you.
Exodus 3:14 God replied to Moses, “I Am Who I Am. Say this to the people ofThis is my eternal name, my name to remember for all generations.
I Am has sent me to you.” 15 God also said to Moses, “Say this to the people of Israel : Yahweh, the God of your
ancestors—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob—has sent
me to you. Israel
Today I give thanks I WALK with Him and He WALKS with me.